countless times i have started this post in my head just to close my eyes and walk away from the computer. some things in life are just too hard. writing about the sudden and tragic death of my sweet 3 1/2 year old nephew is one of those things. not just “one of” but “THE” hardest ever in my life thus far.
he went safely into the arms of Jesus on Monday, September 16 after a valiant fight for his little life following a near drowning.
pleading to God, praying without ceasing, crying, and groaning all ensued throughout the time i found out about his accident to the time he went to be with Jesus. such deep deep sorrow.
and the story behind the song:
we are closing in almost 2 months since he went to be with Jesus forever. Life is different. It just is and it always will be.
I’m not very eloquent with words yet I have so many I want to pour out.
Psalm 91 is a chapter that I prayed fervently during the days ry was in the hospital. It is a prayer of protection and hope.
Super smiley. So very tender. His ears and his voice. Gentle with babies. Silly little giggle.
I feel it, when I sorrow most;’tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.” ~Alfred Lord Tennyson~
loss is hard. this is hard. we were never promised that we would never endure hardship. oh Lord, my God, when I pray to You, I believe and know that You are the giver of life. You created Ry and perfectly placed him with his dad and mom and siblings. I am so thankful for his life, that I loved him. So very thankful for each of my children, all my nieces and nephews and family. God, you are my refuge and my fortress, my God in who I trust.
ry man, i’m so very thankful for the certainty we have in knowing you are with Jesus. smiling and being loved on in such a tremendous way. i love you.